Its been so long since i blogged, thought i can declare it dead as i feel i no longer seems to have a need for it. Oh well, guess even if i blog now no one will see... which is good..

So much things has happened.. my life is upside down now with so much problems... just when i thought i have solved them. My new phone was stolen yesterday.. cold war from her...

Feel so off this world week... my mind constantly on her.. Its not i dun wish to comfort you.. i want you! but u asked me to leave u alone.. I try to do as you say.. my constant faults not withstanding... u got angry over me sleeping at your place... mroe angry i wanted to leave.. now in spite wrong words are said and i am held for it...

Its my fault i know.. for i should not have said those things.. In anger i lost all my bearing of anything that i am unhappy about you.. Nothing i said will make it right now that i know.. but with 1 side standing still things will never move for i am still holding on to you..

I uess i am luckier and unluckier than you.. while your sadness comes at night, i have the full day.. more problems occur to me so as to numb the hurt and pain that have been caused.. but still i have ato act as if all is fine too...

unfortunately the current cirucmstances cause me to involutarly server my contact with you as i no longer have a phone.. but i guess u dun really wan to hear from me anyway.. I now lost all hope that u will reply me some time..anytime.. since i will not know anyway..